Friday, June 4, 2010

Flash back Friday/ The moment we found out we were having twins!

I have not done a Flash Back Friday in so long. But I was looking back at a lot of the blogs I had written about Melody and Madison and when I found this one I knew I had to re-share it.

As I watched this video of the exact moment we found out we were having twins I was filled with so many emotions. I was just remembering that exact moment in time, we didn't have a care in the world. We had just found out the most exciting news ever and we were all rejoicing.

It seems like there was life before we found out we were having conjoined twins and life after. I don't really know how to explain it but I feel like God used what we went through with the girls to change us and draw us closer to Him. I am not the same person I was before I found out about our girls. Life is just different now but not in a bad way at all.

I cried my eyes out watching this just remembering what all I said in the moments after the video stopped. I was telling everyone in the room I know the exact car seat I want to buy (we still had one from Kenya) I kept thinking of our future with twins. This video is the only moment in time I have ever been able to say "we are having twins" and have nothing but amazing exciting feelings. Because it was only a few minutes later we found out that our babies were conjoined. Don't get me wrong I was still so excited to be having twins but after we found out they were conjoined I had a flood of emotions any time I said were having twins because I knew I had to follow it up with "but I need you to pray because they are conjoined."

I cried watching this video because I remember how excited I was that we were having twins, I cried because I remember how it felt the moment my midwife told me they were conjoined, I cried because my babies were alive in this video and their future was still uncertain, I cried as I remembered how faithful God was to us, I cried because I miss my babies and I cried because I am so thankful that we didn't have to walk through this trial alone.

God allowed us to go through that trial for our good and his glory and for that I am thankful! Romans 8:28



Jason was recording the exact moment we found out that we were having twins! We were so excited and still are.

We are so thankful that God blessed us with Melody Joy and Madison Hope. We are still so excited to be having twins this is something that I have always wanted and I'm truly blessed that God gave Melody and Madison to us. We pray that He would be glorified through their lives and ours.

Jason and I have been memorizing Romans 5: 3-5 so I wanted to share it with you all:

More than that, we rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces character, and character produces hope, and hope does not put us to shame, because God's love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit who has been given to us.
(Romans 5:3-5)

I remember the moment it hit me... I looked at Jason and said "in light of eternity this is nothing." Now don't get me wrong this is a huge deal, Jason and I are dealing with the possibility of losing not one but two children. This even more makes us long for Heaven, a place were there will be no more pain or suffering, were God Himself wipes away our tears (Revelation 7:17; 21:4). It is like Paul said: For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worth comparing with the glory that is to be revealed to us. (Romans 8:18)

This is the importance of having a eternal perspective, knowing that God has a purpose in this suffering and will ultimately use it for His glory and our good (Romans 8:28).

Remember what happened with Job after his children were killed, his servants got killed, and other bad things happened to him (Job 1).

So Satan went out from the presence of the LORD and struck Job with loathsome sores from the sole of his foot to the crown of his head. And he took a piece of broken pottery with which to scrape himself while he sat in the ashes. Then his wife said to him, "Do you still hold fast your integrity? Curse God and die." But he said to her, "You speak as one of the foolish women would speak. Shall we receive good from God, and shall we not receive evil?" In all this Job did not sin with his lips.
(Job 2:7-10)

Should we take the good and not bad? Of course not. So we will continue to praise His name because He is so worthy of all our praise, because He is God!


The Sappington's said...

oh my i listened to the recording of all of your reactions, i started crying at your excitement and disbelief and 'i told you so!'. HAHA! i rejoice in lives of these babies and continue to pray for them and for you. we love you guys!

Anonymous said...

The Lord has truly used you guys to show his power and Spirit. Yall's faith in His will has been a real blessing to see and I thank God we are in a church with true Soldiers of Christ like you guys. We are praying for you guys and the twins.
Chris and Cassi

Asher & Noah's Mommy said...

Thank you so much for sharing your story! I too am the mother of conjoined twins; however, my twins were non viable =( I too felt blessed that God had chosen me to be the one to take care of them until it was their time to join Him in Heaven. I lost my boys at 16 weeks. I pray that God continues to guide you and give you strength throughout this process. I'm sorry that your girls cannot be separated, but hopeful that they can live a long healthy life, nonetheless. God bless you and your miracle babies!!