Monday, February 23, 2009

I Repent,...

Hello everyone it has been a while since I have really wrote a good post from the heart. After all this is my online journal. So here it goes,...I'm going to be brutality honest.

I LOVE the blogging world! I really mean that I truly love writing blogs, checking other peoples blogs, finding more blogs to check off of other peoples blogs, and then talking to my family about all the blogs I have been reading like they are real life. It's sick, really it is.

I have only recently come to realize that the blogging worlds has become a HUGE idle in my life. Let me explain what I mean by that. Instead of cleaning, praying, reading my Bible, spending time with my family,...I'm not! Instead I'm at the computer reading and writing blogs. Now don't get me wrong there is nothing wrong with the blogging world and being a part of that world, the problem for me is that it has become the number one spot in my life above my family and most importantly above God. Blogging in and of itself is not a sin but for me it has become VERY sinful. Not because of anything I'm writing or reading but because it is consuming ALL of my time and I love doing it more that ANYTHING else and I really mean that.

Luke 10:27 Jesus says “You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength and with all your mind, and your neighbor as yourself." I truly have not been doing this. I have spent hours and hours and hours on the computer only to go to bed too tired to read my Bible. Or been on the computer so long that a whole day goes by where I don't even play with Kenya. I was reading a blog yesterday and Dee came and sat beside me instead of closing the computer and talking to her I pushed her away and told her I was almost done. When Jason comes home normally I am just finishing up reading or writing a blog and instead of closing the computer to tell my Hubby how much I love him and how much I missed him while he was at work I end up telling him I am almost done. I really didn't want to admit any of these things but I think it's good for you to all see how bad it has gotten so you understand me when I say enough is enough.

I REPENT I repent of spending all my time on the computer instead of loving my family and loving God above all else. I will no longer put the computer in front of my family I love them way to much to push them away for this blogging world that I enjoy so much. I will no longer put it in front of God either. He is number one in my life not this silly computer.

I will still write blogs and check blogs it will just not be my top priority anymore. I would love it if you all continued on this journey with my family. Checking in to see the latest, but I'm removing all the pressure I have put on myself to have "the most amazing blog ever". All I can do is be me and share my family with you.

I want to thank you all for being there to support us during my pregnancy and after the girls were born. I really have made a lot of friends through blogging. I want you all to know that I love you all very much. I will continue to pray for you and your families. We are so blessed!

Vanessa Delgado


saloma said...

wonderful post!!! I have caught myself in the same shoes, and finally said no more blog worshipping! good luck, you have been a real encouragment to me. what a strong person you are!

EH said...

Beautiful post. It is true... it can easily become our god. I will continue to try to put God first and everything else after.

noahandlylasmommi said...

I love ya! Thats all I got to say :0)

curt chadwick said...

Rock of Ages, when in want or rest
My desperate need for such a Savior I confess
Pull these idols out from my heart embrace
Rock of Ages, I need Your grace

Dea (pronounced Deah, like Leah) said...

Hi Vanessa,
I have occasionally read your blog ever since I found out about your babies from Trisha's blog. I completely understand this post! I too have struggled with blogging. I would justify spending my time on it saying I was encouraging others and being encouraged in my walk by reading other wonderful blogs. I have now limited my time to updating my blog no more than once a week. If it becomes a stumbling block within that restraint then I will no longer have it. All things even "good" things can be bad if we are not careful. I heard a preacher by the name of Paul Washer say once that doing God's will will never cause us to break His will in another I asked myself "Is it God's will for me to have this blog in this season of life? But I am speaking His truth to women! But on the other hand... am I neglecting my first priority , my husband and son?" That was convicting to me that is why I have put a restraint on my blogging time.May God grant you and me wisdom in this area!